Here We Are

I wrote this and left it for a few days...which turned in to months. However, I want to acknowledge the feelings before moving on. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Rut. Stuck in a rut. Woah. Still here. Still stuck. Haven't exercised in weeks. Haven't meditated. I'm stuck in a rut and I know why, but cannot seem to muster up the energy to get out of it. Depressing much? Work. Mom life. Professional. Sister. Friend. These roles spin around in my head like leaves blowing in the wind. No doubt I am still trying to process this motherhood thing. Am I taking longer than usual? Am I going to be processing it forever? Is this the new me- the new normal ? I think I keep waiting for things to return to how they were...to be able to accomplish tasks, get things done. With every week that passes, though, my lists grow and my energy dwindles.  Music. Why do I go a day without it? I receive it like an inhale...